I guess this is not the right thing to do but somehow I just want you to know how I feel. I guess I finally got the courage to write down what I feel on a piece of paper. I’ve thought of just telling you face to face what I feel but I don’t think I can find that much courage to face you cause I know that my eyes will betray me. So here I m writing this. I guess you wont even care about this letter but I just want you to listen.
I don’t know what I should say first how much I hate you or how much I like you. Everything’s mixed up inside of me I don’t know what to feel or say. How should I put it? I really like you a lot but at the same time, I hate you for hurting me twice. It really hurts deep down inside. I’ve tried to forget you in everyway I can but it seems like I cant. When I’m getting to a stage where I’m gonna fully forget you, you’ll just come back into my life. I don’t know why this is happening but its just making me go crazy. Though I’ve gone out with other guys, none of them can ever replace a single you. Friends call me crazy for still liking you after what you’ve did to me. All of them are telling me to forget you. I try and try but it’s hard. I’ll just end up liking you more and more. When I went steady wif a guy after breaking up with you, I though that maybe I would forget you but I was wrong. When you and …. sang together, it made me really hurt and jealous somehow. I cried a few nights hoping all this was just a bad dream. But when I woke up, I soon came back to reality.
I really wished hard that both of us could be together again and soon my wish came true. I couldn’t believe it but it was too good to be true. I was over the moon and all. Until when you started to ignore me I felt that something was not right. I asked you a few times if this was just a game or you really liked me but you never seemed to have replied that sms. I only knew the answer to my question when you asked for break. My heart was so shattered like a glass breaking into a million pieces. I couldn’t believe what I’d seen on my hp. everything seem to have change in that every minute. It was like my world was turning upside down and inside out. I so badly wanted to cry out loud but I couldn’t. I had to show to everyone that I was strong and not hurt. I did it the first time when we broke up and I thought I could again. Somehow, I did it and I was happy cause I was trying to stay strong. But when I got home, I went straight to my room and cried. I heard from friends that you’d be singing for teachers’ day so lyc said that I would sure cry. I wanted to prove to him that I would not but this time I couldn’t stay strong. I turn myself away from my friends and soon started to cry. Some could tell but just kept quiet about it.
I really wish I never like you in the first place, but it’s only a wish and it won’t come true. So now I’m here writing a letter about how much I like you. I just want to know what happened between us, I jus want to know your side of the story
