I don't you anymore. you've seem to change over the past few months and and it seems as though we're drifting apart and i mean very far apart. I miss the good old days when we used to go out and have so fun with so much laughter and joy. The days when we used to sing our hearts out like there was no tomorrow and those endless walked we used to take in the middle of the night. I miss it so much that its starting to hurt and making my head spin. I wish i hadn't said all those words to hurt you but sometimes you don't stop and ask how am i anymore. What my face tells you is so far apart from what I'm feeling inside. If only you could spare sometime even just a minute to stop, sit down, and ask how am i feeling inside only then you'll know whats happening. Words will just be words cos it may be lies to hide the truth and hurt from you so that you wont have to think about it. The smile on my face shows or may tell you that I'm happy but if you know me well enough or look deep into that smile you'll know how I'm hurting inside. In the past you'd be the one to take away all the pain that I'm feeling but now that your just not there anymore. I don't know where to look or who to run to, to just cry and say everything that's on my mind. The picture i paint or see in my head is so beautiful cos we're happy together but in reality i know that's not true. As i sit here and think about it i ask myself 'in the first place why did i let all this happen' and i cant find the answer cos your not there anymore. That feeling of loneliness and emptiness is all that I've got now. There are so many things i wish i could take back and pretend that i didn't say it or do it but i know that's not gonna happen cos this is reality and i have to face it and live with it even though is gonna hurt or should i say its already starting to hurt. The hurt feels like a thousand knives piercing through my heart and body. Though i don't see any blood flowing out, i see people who are laughing at me and say how much of a bitch I've been. I hear them say about how cheap i am and karma has got to me now after so long. I try to cry and thinking that someone would come to my aid or rescue me but then i realized its not gonna happen any more cos i cried wolf one too many times. I understand that its not their fault but mine cos i started all this and so i have to bear with the hurt that i have inflicted on myself. I don't or wont blame anyone about what ever has happened between us cos its my fault for not trusting you enough and giving you your space to breathe. I've said "sorry" one to many times and i know you wont accept it anymore so I'm just gonna walk away and disappear so that i wont be there to hurt you time and time again.

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know

How to say

How I feel

Those three words

Are said too much

They're not enough

Te quiero mas que el amor