I have been have such a rough few days that i feel very drained out from my body. So much of tears dropping and hair falling... think i'm growing old faster than i can say 'old'. Was suppose to meet up with baby on Sunday afternoon at Yio Chu Kang but i'm so used to taking the train towards Marina bay so i happily and confidently boarded the train until it said "next stop novena" i was like eh... i thought its braddle or bishan? where's the sun? (Bishan is not an underground line) then i strucked me when the door was about to close that i was on the wrong side. Super embarrassing when i walked out of that train and towards the opposite one. Finally on the right track, i meet baby at Yio Chu Kang and headed to Katib to take a bus back to Tamp.

The bus was super duper pack to the max and people still wanted to squeeze in which was like CRAZY! I was complaining to Shawn how come Singaporeans still wanna die die squeeze onto the bus when its so super obvious that THERE IS NO MORE SPACE and the driver also very stupid cos he let them up and never say or do a thing. The lease he could do was to stand up and ask the back people to move in abit cos there was space in the back and not the front but he didn't do so. STUPID DRIVER!

When we finally got to Tamp, we couldn't decide on what to eat so ended at Pastamania and this KID IRRITATED ME TO THE MAX! OK I'm gonna say this honestly.... i do like kids but only if they're at the age of between 3-5 other than that please stay far far awayyyy from me. She was sitting opposite me and her mom went to order and she started to like stare at me with that little girl's "whats your problem's face" and so knowing me, i did the same thing back to her (i know it was childish of me to do so but she was irritating me and i was having a bad day.. i think) Baby asked me to stop looking at her and i did but she didn't stop and the next time you know, she started crying. Me, being me felt so guilty cos i was looking at her throughout the whole while but in the end i felt like a fool cos she was crying for he mom to get back at the table cos she was scared being alone. Nabei right!?!? Make me feel so guilty for nothing.

At night we left for the chalet and had fun.... i didn't catch everyone's name but somehow i felt that no one there liked me cos I'm like so opposite from them meaning... the way i dress, talk and do stuff so kinda felt a little left out after Fi and Mitch came down. Thank god for them if not i would have just sat on the bed alone for hours and wait for baby till he finishes mingling around. When Fi and Mitch came i was like super happy to see them at least i had some friends to talk to and not be alone. But they left around 2plus cos Fi had work the next morning. So i slept on the bed till like 5plus when i heard some scary noises coming beside me... but its was actually baby's friend snoring like there was gonna be a thunder storm... (sorry baby i'm saying this about your friend. but it was really scary)so i woke up and went downstairs and that too was scary cos everyone look as though they were dead but they we all tired from drinking and staying over night since Friday. Found baby, slacked for awhile then left for home. Got home i super felt like dying cos i drank too much until baby had to stuff his finger down my throat and i puked like 5 times. ( i know this is disgusting but think about it... how many guys or rather bf would stuff his finger down ur throat just to help u vomit it all out? )

Bathe, changed and was suppose to go down to ntuc to get campbell soup but we fell asleep till like 6:45pm so woke up and went straight down to order chili crab and sambal kang kong. Super Shiok.... During the wait we went to ntuc to get some stuff but the ntuc SUCKS!

this is a conversation between me and baby :

Me: remind me to buy tampons

Baby: ya i know. i'm looking for it... found it!

Me and Baby staring at the shelf for a good 2mins

Me: darling how come no tampon one? i thought everywhere got sell. my house downstairs mama shop got leh. how come here ntuc dont have?

baby: dont know leh... i think tampines all use pad with wings. (with a serious look and tone)

LOLLL!!!!!!

I couldn't help but laughing. went up for dinner and watched So you think you can dance and it was good... i only have 2pics to post during the eating session...

baby swore the crab was still alive. haha

this is how my baby looks like after eating. ha ha

This last part of my post is dedicated to my Hunny Bunny Shawn Lim.

I know that in the past we've been thru so much together and yes it still hurts sometime but i hope that the pain will slowly fade away and that we can start a fresh and not think about all those fucked up crap. During these past few days, you shown me and others how much effort your trying to make it right and different and i am thankful for that and i don't ask for more. I know that by doing this is so not you but your doing this because of me and i don't know how much to thank you and tell you that i love you. Even now i have to tell my dad about certain stuff which you know i totally no guts to do so but u talked me thru it so it wont cock up tomorrow and i hope it wont. I hope my dad will allow and that things will go smoothly.... I know by going with me its gonna be a big sacrifice for you and it kinda pains me at the same time but i need you by my side too. We'll see how things go tomorrow ok cos tomorrow is my moment of truth. I wanna let you know that i love you alot and its worth loving you because i know no other guy would do what you did for me. I love you baby.

i hope this moment stays forever.

OH YA! Did i mention that i have an interview tomorrow afternoon at 2pm. I applied as a skating instructor and i'm going down tomorrow for the interview. Dont know how is it gonna turn out but i hope good. I know what is going thru your minds now... Alicia?? Apply for job?? Sure anot she can work?? I don't think she can handle ah.... This is what your thinking right??... No worries cos i'm doing the same... haha. i just need something to do cos i have too much time on my hands one. So i decide to send in my resume. Will see how it goes tomorrow... Wish me luck babes!