I wish i had the answers to my questions. The more keep it inside the more i feel as though my heart is sinking. I keep asking myself if you mean what you say, if she's still on your mind, and will history repeat itself? I know its dumb of me to think about all this but you cant blame me because i am still afraid and i don't want to go through the same process of that pain and hurting myself again. I wish you could give me a sense of security and assure me that you'll always be by my side. The reason why i want it to be fast is because at least i know you'll still think of this relationship before you do anything foolish. Its not that i don't trust you but it because I'm afraid to lose you once again. I hope things will get better.