Is it alright to feel this lost every time you disappear? Each and every time you leave without a word but you leave me hanging and waiting for what will come next. Maybe its because I've gone thru this that's why i feel so numb despite all the pain i should feel. I don't blame you for what ever that is happening for the only blame i can put on is myself. Maybe your love faded long before and we were just getting back together because it was just a comfort zone for you and me. Sometimes i wonder how important or unimportant we are to each other and i cant find that answer because to me you're apart of everything within me and everything that revolves around me but for you, its so hard to read cos every time i think i know whats going thru your mind, you completely shock me with something new and different. Is this what we really what? Honestly cos you said you wont leave again and you assured me but now look where we are... once again we're back at square one with so much pain and anger in our hearts.
I hate it when we sleep over our angers and hope that tomorrow will be a better day. I'd rather we talk things out then just put them at the back of our heads. I know I've said sorry a hundred dozen times and sometimes sorry doesn't mean anything but deep down i wanna tell you that "its not easy to love you too" we have so many differences and such a long past behind us and it hurts every time i look at you. I knew this day would come but i didn't know it would be so soon. I don't wanna be that broken hearted girl again who crys herself to sleep everynight. I hope we can work things out.
- How can i move on, when i'm still in love with you
