Here i m again. I'm jux feelin so damn bloody sad. Dunno why oso. I jux wanna pour out everything tat i have on my mind. I don think my life can carry on like this coz i noe tat one dae, i'll have mental break down and i'll jux go bonkers. I'm jux feelin so damn fucked up abt my fuckin life. Why does everything have to turn out this way? Why is everyone walk away fr me and never comin back again? Why are things around me changing so damn fast? Its jux like i cant catch up wif tym coz here i m stucked in a world of my own wif no one to tok to. Seems like de world is goin down for me. Nth seems to be goin de way i wan to. Wishes don come true anymore and even if they do, i'll jux end up gettin hurt even more. Life seems to be playin games wif me. Cant all this stop rite here and rite now? All this is jux giving me a bad headache... i wanna fall aslp and never wake up again and even if i do, i wish for all this to be a bad dream fr a long nite's slp. I think of all de comin days and wad will be install for me and i fear even more coz i noe de worst is yet to come my way. All dis pain inside is slowly killin me. Its like a to st goin thru my heart a thousand tymz and i'm slowly bleedin to death. I try to stay awake but i'm slowly runnin out of breath and de tym seems to be passin by so quickly. And soon i'll be dead....
Even though i say i don like u anymore, deep down i realli still do like u alot. U were de one hu changed my life around... U gave me so much of hope tat things will be jux fine and i believed u coz i trusted and loved u. I didn't expected tat things would have turned out this way. The cruelty in your eyes that you cannot hide and your cold embraces prove your frozen inside. You see my tears as they bleed this weak soul. But i'm still likin u even after all u've done to me. Can u tell me why do i love someone hu has hurt me twice and whom i noe will nv love me in return. Will u come back to me again? If not i'll jux have to bear wif this pain till it fads away.
[[ SHATTERED ]]
It's all my fault..
I've shattered my own heart?
Blurred images and an aching heart.
The shock of what I'd just done
Slowly sinking in.
My happiness slipped away again.
The worst of it all…
Is that he doesn't care.
I thought maybe…he did love me.
Not a very strong feeling of love,
If when my heart is breaking,
He doesn't even bat an eye at my tears.
My worthless tears,
Shed in a moment of pain.
They are taken note of by none.
The only audience they have is me.
They fall of their own volition.
I cannot stop them.
I put a smile on my face,
And face the day.
The pieces of my heart,
Merely placed into my pocket,
To await repair on another day.
Shattered countless times,
The mending marks are distinctly apparent.
Break me again.
It makes no difference anymore.
