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ma world seems to be coming down on me. Everything's crashing like its nobody's business and da people ard me seem to be moving further and further away fr me. Time seems to be passing so fast tat i cant even catch up wit it. In an blink of an eye, i'm somewhere else no more in ma own lil corner. ma mind is in a mess wit loads of question waitin to be answered and ma feelings are all jumbled up wif mixtures of sadness, anger, hurt...


I try and change things but no matter how much i try, it neva seems to change. I try to go back to ma own world and forget abt da pain inside me but its hard and even more hurtful. ma feelings are different this tym coz i jux cant get ma mind straight and think right. Everything seems to mismatched and theres so much of hurtin goin ard...


I try hard to show ma feelings but i cant. I try hard to make ma smile true but it just comes out so fake. I try to enjoy ma self but i end up gettin hurt. I tried many things but everytym i do i jux fall back and wen i fall back, i stand up and try again.... But now no matter how much i try and and fall, i don even feel like standin up again coz now i noe evertym i fall and get up da pain is even more hurtin den before. I rather sit here and cry coz it'll make feel so much betta...



deep inside i'm cryin
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