Random. I was thinking about all the shitty things that happened last year and i finally realized that i've wasted one whole year of my life on something/someone that/who is not worth it. I guess at that point of time you just think that he/she is the one for you and you put everything into him/her. You give it your all and what you'll ever give to someone and then suddenly, it crashed it just crashed right in front of you like nobody's business. Reasons will all be made up which in the end will be just bullshit cos its not or never true and then you just start feeling so depressed and fcuked up until one day you sit alone and think for once and you realized what a fool you were cos you were being played out right from the start. Like they always say 'words are just words.' For many this is a phrase we always tell ourselves but when it comes to sweet words we just melt at every word and fall.
Eight letters three words but so many meanings. Some would say theres only one meaning to it but when i sit down and think about it, i find so many meanings to it be it good or bad. We always tell our partner how much we love them but how many a times do we really mean what we say. Its so easy just to say 'i love you' but do you really mean it or are you just trying to make the other party happy? Someone once told me that 'you don't have to tell the person you love them everyday cos if its from your heart, it will be felt' and i find this so true. Wont it feel so much more better if you felt what is love rather then just hearing a person say 'i love you' like a hundred times? We always tell our partner how much we love and trust them but is it true? cos deep down we all know that no matter how much we say we trust the other party, its never true. There will be just this little feeling inside of you that makes your mind wonder off to jealousy land. I guess its because we're all human that's why we feel this way.
Song playing now: Bukan Diriku by Samsons
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ut5r9-w-HS8
Translation: Now I have realised that I'm not the best for you. I can't deny that I don't understands you anymore. I am not the one (for you).I'm really sorry that I can't express myself clearly to you. It's not that I'm being impolite, it's just my heart can't fully understand you. Please forgive me. You are the one who fully understand me, truly knows me, but (unfortunately) I'm not the one who shower you with appreciation. I am not the one who can give you what you want. Tho I still love you, I have to leave and forget about you. I still care, and need you badly, but..I have to let you go.
