I cant understand why some people are like that. First they want they don't want it then they want it back and when your about to give your answer, they walk away and leave without saying a word. I just cant understand you anymore your no more the person i used to know. Suddenly there are so many things I'm getting to know about you and what your doing when we promised 'no secrets'. I know you and i don't have to tell each other anything but after that message of your asking about me, my life and saying you want back in this i thought whatever you said was real and not a lie but i guess i was so wrong about that. I don't wish to doubt you nor do i wish to give myself the benefit of doubts cos words travel fast and i have no freaking idea why people are telling me all this. I don't think you need me anymore in your life cos you've got 'her' i know she's always been like an older sister to you but do you realise that both me and her just don't click. I saw the pictures and i don't know why you didn't tell me that you guys are now in contact again after seven months. Till now i have no whatsoever clue of why you left and why your back and leaving again.
The funny thing about you is that you cant decide on what you want, tell me do you want to stay or do you want to leave? I'm very sure you cant answer this simple question of mine. Tell me this game your play who will benefit from it you, me or us? I'm just really disappointed about what you said and how your behaving. If you can tell someone that its because of a stupid reason then why are you so stupid to act upon that feeling when you know its because of the stupid reason or misunderstanding. I want to get out of that benefit of doubt that you still want this because I'm just so tired and sick of all this. Its like your taking me on a roller coaster ride at the amusement park first i you get me so high to a point where i can see everything from this top view and then suddenly within seconds this roller coaster is going downwards. Its travelling so fast that i cant catch my breath or a glimpse of what is around me. I don't want to get hurt while playing all these games anymore and i really hope you can SIT down and THINK about what you REALLY WANT and NOT CHANGE your decision after a day. You always say "you should know me" then i must say that you know me well or should i say very well to a point where you know what I'm thinking and what I'm feeling. You know me so well that I'm starting to think that your taking advantage of my weak points.
I do have to admit that i still love you alot and i want this back too but try to look at it on my side. Your coming and going and you know very well how much i hate people around me to do that so ya stop it. I really don't wish to have another episode in my life getting hurt over and over again. Don't be another Gab! I'm not comparing you and him but look at yourself and what your doing aren't you almost doing what he did? Both you and i need to just take a breather and really sit down and rest for awhile. If you need me, you know I'm just a call away.
