I apologies to my friends who have been trying to get me to go for classes and exams especially Yann and Imran. I know you guys have been nagging and nagging for the past few weeks and i just ignore. I promise to start going to school and my paper starting of tomorrow and i guess i will have to cos my bloody mom is back in SG and this sucks because she is a total pain in the ass. Haix! As Yann said... I have been concentrating on my social life more than any important stuff like school and all. I just don't know what to say about myself and i know how much it sucks and how much is everyone hating me for this.

Things are just going super down hill and i don't know how to save it anymore or maybe i just wanna ignore the facts of reality. I wish i didn't have to see or hear the lies of everyone especially you! I don't understand why i still trust you after all this fucked up shit you made me feel so much like a fool because you hit my weak points and you saw my tears. I don't know what is true now the 'truth' when you told her or the 'truth' when you told me. Please tell me which one i should believe now cos you have been lying one too many times and i think its time you stop it. You've never seen or felt the hurt that i have been feeling for this time and you will never know no matter how hard you try. You say you wanna be there to help but think again because this is not the first time you have said this and you were never there.

Look at yourself and reflect please. Try to help yourself before saying you wanna help me. It hurts to see you doing this to yourself and i wanna cry because i feel the hurt your body is feeling. Maybe we're too young to understand the meaning of life and what it should actually be but then again, its never too late to learn from our mistakes and try to make amends. I hope that whatever you said to me that both nights its was from your heart and true.