I'm feeling super sleepy and i hate this feeling. Fucked up! Sometimes i stop and wonder why is this happening over and over again. Just when i thought it ended and is done and over with, it comes back and it makes me feel extremely lost and confused. I thought i was ok but i guess time snapped me back into reality and here you are again making me feel like a fool. I did have a good laugh when you were gone but now its totally different. Instead of laughing, i am tearing and thinking of the "what ifs" again and it suck. Someone told me something just the other day and i am very shocked and disappointed in you and your ability to make up stories.